I hope you see what you did. I finally toughened up and put that blade to my wrist. You proud of me? I just need to feel… and feel I did. I felt that blade slide across my skin; just enough to feel it. Not enough to draw any blood if you decided to wonder…. just enough. Just enough to feel something. To feel pain other than the emotional pain I feel, and did it feel good….if I keep being made to feel this way I may not just stop where I did. And I ask again, you proud of me?